Goodnight

You know how it hurts, to be left behind, to be rejected, abandoned and torn inside by the person you need the most. I know you know. You've been there. I know you've been there cos I was there when nobody else was, remember? 

Time passes by. I'm wearing your shoes now. I feel you. The hurts, the tears, that unwanted feelings tear me up, drain my blood, scrape my bones. I know you know. But you left. 

Just tell me how to be like you. Easily forget and fall for anyone else.

Just tell me how it feels. Laughing on my tears. 

Are you happy for not having me around? 

You said no.  But you never ask me to be around. 

Do you still love me? 

You said yes. But how could you let someone you love getting through all the pain by her only self?

I know you're happy for not having me around. I know you stop loving me. And you know how it hurts, to be left behind, to be rejected, abandoned and torn inside by the person you need the most. I know you know.

Goodnight.

Biasa

"Ga ada duittttt, duitnya abissss."

"Yah, ada acara makan-makan sama sodara...."

"Mobil lagi dipake mama nih...."

"Duh, mbak belum balik, disuru jaga rumah."

:) kalau sudah begini, paling saya cuma....

"Oh, yaudah gapapa hehe :)"

"Yah, yaudah have fun ya."

"Hmm...yasudahhhh hehe :)"

"Hehe yaudah gapapa jangan dipaksain. Take care."

Lalu setelahnya mulai terbiasa. Segala jenis alasan ditelan saja sampai sesak. Sampai kadang mengajak pun sudah tahu jawabnya apa.
Lalu setelahnya mulai terbiasa. Melihat segala foto selepas jalan-jalan dengan temannya. Sampai sesak berlomba mendahului temannya untuk mengajak pergi bersama.
Lalu setelahnya mulai terbiasa. Ratusan "gapapa" dengan emot ":)" yang sebenarnya berteriak sebaliknya.
Padahal bicara saja sudah butuh keberanian. Mengajak apalagi.

Tapi terbiasa bukan berarti tidak apa.









Hahahaha, sudahlah. Tidak apa.